The Lord is my shepherd;
I have everything I need.
I did a really dumb thing. My iMac has been running slow so I decided to fix it. Mark had an app that he uses on his computer and recommended it for me to try. The computer is six years old so I know it needed a thorough cleaning. This app promised to speed it up, free up space, clean up private data, uninstall apps and adware, check for malware — all sounded good. So I downloaded it and started the process and spent last Saturday afternoon “cleaning.” I got the final thumbs up after several hours and went to bed satisfied with the results.
Until Sunday afternoon.
Not to get too technical but I had inadvertently (scary word) deleted all my folders in Mail that were on my Mac. Don’t ask me how I did it but I do remember Mail as one of the options to screen and I checked yes. These folders had emails going back to 2016 and it was the info that I wanted to save. Some were sentimental, some business, some data and information. I thought I could restore it from TimeMachine and called Apple. But, alas, her final comment after investigating the options was, “I’m sorry.”
The rest of the day I spent trying to think of a way to get them all back but by evening, I had to accept that they were gone…forever. I was sad. I realized that I rarely go back back through them but it was security to know that I could. And then it hit me that I felt much like I did when we cleaned out and sold our house almost two years ago.The angst of getting rid of 40-50 years of stuff was daunting and at times, also, sad. But, I’m here to tell you that after living with little for these last months, I like it. Those emails? Oh well.
It’s a comfort to me to know that I am never alone in these times of distress and loss. Jesus, my good Shepherd, is right there beside me. When I am down in heart, He comforts me with his love. When the way ahead is blocked by insurmountable boulders, He’s there to guide me around or through. When I get scared because this is all so unfamiliar and I don’t know which way to turn, He takes my hand and leads me the right way. I am safe.
Truly, I have all that I need.